Truth....

The awkward silence/times with someone you're not used to, yet can turn into the strongest/closest friendships. Open up. Let Go.

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Nowadays, when I first meet new people, or hang with people I haven't hung with in a longtime or, EVER! I seem to come off shy. I dont want people to think I dont like them or anything (those are the first thoughts everyone seems to get.) It's not that at all. I just don't trust anyone. I've been fucked over one too many times. I know most people have, but we all deal differently. I'm starting to try to really open up, again. I'm all about taking chances and risks. If I want new people in my life, I'm going to have to let my guard down. This is how many of my long term friendships with people began. "Awkwardness." lol. Not knowing one another. What type of music the other likes. Are they goofy or conservative? You dont want to scare anyone off. And, my goofyness and craziness might scare people off if they're "conservative" and I not know it. LOL! But, hey you'll never get to know someone and if you have anything in common if you dont make an effort, break the ice and talk! 

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Let Go. At least you know you tried. So, from now on I will try not to shut people out. Its always nice to meet new peeeps and have girlfriends who you have things in common with or who are the COMPLETE opposite from you. Sometimes, those become the closest friendships. LIVE. I'm learning, again. Sometimes, its fun to just be alone. I love it. But, its always nice to have company now && then, too. Someone you can talk to about certain things. I'm evolving.