IN a world where no one understands me, yet I take the time out to understand others. Most give up, because their thoughts differ from mine. I don't Give up easily. Screaming out to the world, but can anybody hear me ? A girl who doesn't mind standing alone while everyone else seeks "popularity." Better at expressing feelings with my pen and paper. Longing for others to meet me halfway. Seeking happiness, the person I used to be. I smile, because ONCE AGAIN, I'm worried about everyone else. Don't want to bring anyone down. I Joke, I kid, I play, but there's always more deeper within. More than what one's eye can see. I like to do for myself, never liked to rely on others. I can come off as shy, because I cant trust. I observe the world. I just want everyone to be happy, that's my problem. I need to worry about ME. No one else is going to. I have a lot of growing to do, i'm woman enough to admit that. I feel like I do SO MUCH and TRY SO HARD, yet nothing pays off. I guess there's a lot of people who feel the same. I've made a lot of mistakes, I'm human. No one is perfect. I cant be the "bigger" person in every situation, its time for someone else to learn. A girl with longterm goals and dreams, chasing them the best way that I can. Watch me work. Empty. I just want my grandparents back. I miss them dearly. I'll never be the same, I know. But, it doesn't hurt to try. I like quiet time, It allows me to think. Sometimes, I dont know what i'm thinking about, but I feel free without the sounds. Silence speaks louder than you think. I love life, but is that even possible when you're not completely happy ? IDK. So many questions, not enough answers. I guess if God allows me to keep breathing for more years to come, I will eventually get more answers through my experiences. I'm only 2O. I have a long way to go.
p.s. I miss my room.
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